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夏日的清晨

Monday, July 26th, 2010

又是周日了。昨晚睡前還想著今天可以睡個懶覺,早上6點整還是習慣性的醒來。閉著眼睛幾番輾轉,還是睡不著,怕吵醒家人,索性起床。躡手躡腳的梳洗一番後,喝一杯清水,伸個懶腰,決定到樓下花壇搖椅上小坐一會。也就是休息天才能如此醒來不用急匆匆的準備早點,趕著上班。

下得樓來,才發現昨晚下過大雨。原來夏季的雨也有溫柔的時候,昨日空氣中的燥熱,此時已被清爽取代,朦朧又潮濕的空氣中,暗香襲來。

花壇裡昨日開的甚豔的玫瑰花,昨夜被雨澆打,朵朵花兒彷彿承受不了雨的重,好似那嬌羞的少女般低垂頷首。旁邊的兩盆太陽花,因為下雨也嬌羞的合攏著花瓣,彷彿在等待著陽光的撫愛才肯綻放。倒是那上週才種的幾株茉莉花,在青青的葉片間開放著星星點點的純白,散發著優雅的清香,茉莉也無愧是炎熱的夏日之花了。

院落牆壁上是母親多年前種下的爬山虎,它們的葉子在牆壁上生機勃勃的不斷地肆意擴張著,已爬到二樓高了,是乎想藉著牆壁爬上屋頂去看看外面不一樣的風景。

最靈動的莫過於風兒了,溫柔的一陣清風佛面而來。風一吹一個婉轉,牆壁上爬山虎的葉子瑟瑟作響,剔透的水珠如煙是霧的飄忽下來,點點兒落在了花上,地上,我的身上。我張開雙手欣喜的迎接它們,如果它們是有形的,甚至想擁抱它們。

我慵懶的坐於搖椅上,看著它們,即使不出聲,即使只是一個人,一樣可以感受到無邊的幸福。突然想起有那麼一句話:“我心似秋月,碧潭清皎潔,無物堪比論,叫我如何說?”在大自然賦予的這樣美好景象裡,拋開一切的哀怨情愁,拋開一切的世俗浮華。讓自己擁有一份寧靜的心境,平平淡淡,踏踏實實,淡定從容--

此時樓上傳來了嬉鬧的聲音,是家人起床了,該準備早餐了。緩緩起身再次深吸一口帶著花香的空氣,踱步上樓,要把內心滿滿的幸福傳達給身邊至親至愛的每一個人。

心淡如菊

Tuesday, July 6th, 2010

生活在這個五彩繽紛的世界,會有悲歡離別,此乃人之常情,用生命的微笑,執著的追求,頑強的拼搏去奮鬥,從容自如地面對磨難與打擊而永不反悔,心淡如菊的人會活得更豁達更快樂!保持一顆心淡如菊,不求非份之想,只求順其自然,辛勤勞作凍肉走富路,安份守紀做個人,平平安安過日子,知足常樂享天年。
  
心淡如菊,就能正確對待自己。擁有一顆平常心,意識到山外有山,天外有天,天下能人比比皆是,自己能做到的別人也能做到,甚至做得更好。
  
心淡如菊,就能正確對待金錢。有此心態,就不會鋌而走險,栽在金錢的腳下。
  
心淡如菊,就能正確對待人生。人生在世,生命誠可貴,自由價更高。心安理得,無愧無悔,人生豈不樂哉!

人生是條單行線,是一條只能前行無法倒退或是逆向行駛的路徑。人生是無法重裝的系統,是無法重啟的程序,是無法修改的指令,更是無法刪除的記憶。在我們短暫的人生中,可能會遇到風花雪月,也可能會遇到肉食海產風霜嚴寒,可能會看到春江花月,也可能會看到寸草不生……所有的這一切都是我們人生的痕跡,是我們無法替換的惟一。

我們選擇不了生命,但我們可以選擇走過生命的方式,做人要幾分淡泊,清風細雨,同樣有韻致,有詩意;做事要幾分從容,俯仰之間,依然灑脫,依然隨意。不刻意,不虛偽,沒有萬卷詩書的熏陶,我們有的是簡單歲月的樸素;沒有歷練滄桑後的成熟,我們有的是寵辱不驚的坦然。擁有太陽,輝煌就是你的幸福,何必苛責陽光的刺眼;擁有月亮,皎潔就是你的幸福,何必苛責月光的清涼;幸福是一種智慧,用珍惜和寬容的心去對待她,心中就會蕩漾著幸福的春光……
  
悠悠歲月,茫茫塵世。人生苦短,幾十年匆匆歲月,人生要過“萬重山”,更需要心淡如菊地簡約前行。因為,人生的歲月,逝去的就永遠也無法再回頭。在人生旅途上,生活給了我們酸甜苦辣,每一種心情都需要我們用心去讀懂,去感受,去品味夏季幾招識別凍肉的好壞。因此,我們要心淡如菊,珍惜人生、熱愛生活,珍愛生命,活在當下,珍惜眼前,感知生命的真諦,從容地生活,淡定地工作,淡然的做人。

當我們行進在擁擠不堪的單行線上時,要心淡如菊,“卸載”背上“名利、地位、情慾、人情”諸多重負,簡約而行,保持一顆輕鬆的心,讓生命之舟滿載著歌聲、笑聲和陽光,去享受生命旅程的樂趣……

六一快樂

Wednesday, June 2nd, 2010

告別了榴花紅似火的紅五月,又逢上了六一兒童節的狂歡,節日的氣氛接二連三在我的身邊蔓延。在溫馨的節日里,讓我這個已不再過兒童節的成年人,輕輕彈奏夏日的琴弦,用最樸實無華的語言,慢慢展開心靈的祝愿:孩子們,節日快樂,願你們健康快樂成長。
  
彈去五月的風塵,迎來六月的陽光。六月,細雨飄飛的季節,百花芳香的季節,情誼濃濃的季節!可愛的孩子們都在興高采烈地等待著過屬於自己的這個節日。可是,寶貝們,你們知道六一兒童節的來歷嗎?每年的6月1日,是全世界少年兒童的節日,“六一國際兒童節”。六一兒童節的來歷,要追溯到50多年前,國際民主婦女聯合會為保障全世界兒童生存權、保健權和受教育的權利,1949年11月在莫斯科舉行的會議上,決定以每年的6月1日為國際兒童節。我國於1949年12月確定6月1日為兒童節。過節,要知道節日的來歷。做任何事情,要知道做這件事情的原因和意義。
  
六一兒童節,是孩子們的節日,送給孩子們微笑,這是最好的節日禮物。真的希望,這些祖國的花朵們,在灑滿陽光的日子裡,都能健康快樂地成長。在祝孩子們節日快樂的同時,且不可說“少年不知愁滋味”?也不要講“小小少年,很少煩惱”?要知道童年人也有許多煩惱,每天學不完的功課,做不完的作業之苦,練不完的鋼琴,寫不完的書法……我知道快樂的節日到來的時候,也許你並不輕鬆。因為功課的繁忙,第二課堂的緊張,但無論怎樣,不要忘記放鬆一下緊張的神經,讓自己於勞逸結合中健康快樂地成長!
  
六月裡充滿了歡聲笑語,六月的兒童歡天喜地。在六月的第一天,孩子們天真無邪的笑容甜蜜如花綻放,一顰一笑、一言一行,令所有的鮮花都黯然失色。六月的陽光燦爛無比,我們的生活充滿陽光,陽光下的寶貝兒們,你們那一張張可愛的笑臉,你們一陣陣歡快的歌聲,多麼幸福啊!幸福的孩子,有媽媽爸爸的陪伴,有爺爺奶奶外公外婆的呵護,有所有人對你們的關心。然而,你們知道嗎?高爾基的童年,沒有六一兒童節;雷鋒的童年,由於家裡生活困難,沒過過六一兒童節;作家王蒙由於匱乏和苦難,沒有童年。這雖然已經成為歷史,但歷史不能忘記。
  
六月的陽光,灑向蔥翠的森林;六月的雨露,滑落下透徹的清爽;六月的小鳥,正唧唧喳喳地歌唱;六月的樹木,舒展著身姿召喚。六一兒童節,兒童的盛宴。在兒童節裡,孩子們會歡慶著屬於自己的時光。六月,是孩子們的搖籃,六月是孩子們的樂園,孩子們的天堂。今天生活在福利院的孩子們,沒有爸爸媽媽的陪伴,還有太多農村留守兒童不能去公園過六一,他們成了舉國上下的牽掛。請讓他們與你們同做兒童節裡的嘉賓,同享屬於兒童的快樂!讓我們一起把美好的祝福送給那些孩子們:節日快樂,我們永遠牽掛和祝福你們!六一是上帝賜予你們這些小天使的愛,你們盡情歌唱,盡情舞蹈的同時,成人也在六一為所有的孩子狂歡!
  
在為寶貝兒們祝福的同時,我的心弦已經被童年這個名詞給感染。兒童節好像是一個與我再也毫不相干的節日,想到這裡我又感到歲月的殘酷無情,時間生命的快速輪迴。我突然看到時間正在賜予一些孩子們這個節日的快樂,又同時殘忍地剝奪一些享有這個節日權利的人。在我小的時候,最盼望的就是六一的到來。期望著能穿起白襯衣,新裙子,再把細嫩的小腳丫急急的踩進彩色的塑料涼鞋。可是,一直到我中學畢業,身上總是單調的白襯衫,藍褲子。這就是那個時代的歷史背景。 1977年,我的最後一個兒童節,是在哭泣中度過的。 5月31日,我已經買好了六一要去公園遊園而準備的麵包和汽水。可是在5月31日的下午,我的爺爺去世了。因此,第二天的六一兒童節,對我來說就沒有任何意義了,同時還增添了痛苦的思念情結。
  
六一代表著稚氣,代表著人生剛開始的無知。雖然我已經不過六一的我,每年一到這個節日,仍會有股莫名的激動,為這個節日的到來高興,也深深地懷念那個曾經也屬於我的六一。對於六一,我有太多的感慨。這些心中的無限感慨讓我記起了作家王蒙的一段話:“我沒有童年,但是我有五歲六歲七歲直到十幾歲的經歷,一年也不少,一天也不少。回想舊事,仍然有許多快樂和依戀。”所以,無論童年是什麼樣的,當自己長大成人後,童年總是記憶中的不可缺少的一個組成部分。因為童年是一支歌,跳躍著美妙的音符;童年是一幅畫,稚嫩的畫筆描繪出眼裡的多彩世界;童年的世界,是如此的五彩繽紛……
  
斗轉星移,世事變遷,孩子對“六一”的喜愛與期盼沒有變。小到父母,大至國家,對孩子的關愛沒有變!你看,五十年前老舍先生就寫給孩子們的一首小詩:“正當芍藥盛開,燕子飛來/正當玫瑰含笑,櫻桃熟了/一年中最好的時節!/芍藥不及你美,小弟小妹!/櫻桃不及你紅,少年先鋒!/玫瑰花開了還要謝,兒童節永遠歡躍!/學習、勤勞、歌舞,多麼幸福!/你們是國家的寶貝/祝兒童節呵,萬歲!”五十年了,這首小詩聽起來還是那麼親切。寶貝兒們,兒童節是快樂的節日,共同擁抱美麗的六月,一起慶祝自己的節日吧!
  
六月是太陽初升的清晨,六月是孕育希望的喜悅,六月是渴望春雨的蓓蕾,六月是孩子們放飛希望的童年!當和煦的陽光奏響夏日的序曲,當遍地的鮮花開放在繽紛的世界,當歡樂的歌聲傳遍了祖國的四面八方,我們的祝福都在孩子們的身旁。明天就是六一兒童節了,可愛的孩子們:六一兒童節快樂!童年快樂!永遠快樂!

行走直線的軌蹟

Tuesday, April 20th, 2010

我一個人,踏著斑馬線。就這樣走著走著,一步一步。在這個初春的凌晨,走過的卻盡是回憶。

想來,也已經有了好幾年,沒有見過你的臉。看著和你的照片,傻傻的兩個人,笑的究竟有多甜?
  
那麼,現在的我真的不清楚了。那種沉默的疲倦。若想真明白,真是要用好幾年。思緒亂成一團一團的膠片。曝光的長短,是一種眷戀。只是,哪有這麼好的時間供你消遣。

又是一個夜,在不開燈的房間,我品著一杯,苦茶。苦澀的讓我想流淚。只可惜,那天的你,身邊,不再是我。香煙氳成的光圈,一圈一圈,實在是妙不可言。因為,一轉眼,消失不見。讓你覺得,人生啊。愛情啊。都可以,不留下什麼。就這樣,渾渾噩噩的。黑眼圈,深眼袋,髒亂的頭髮,稱景的也是那一個,我瘋了的在毀亂的房間。

霓虹燈,煙熏妝,又是一個夜晚。只是喧鬧的,讓人坐立不安。是不是當思緒一點一點的沉澱,這樣,我才能,醉的貪得無厭?嘩然的在吧台,一杯一杯。男人,不要這麼虛偽的來到我的身邊。女人,也不用這樣裝的楚楚可憐。不必要。也很讓我討厭。討厭。
  
真想看看,這樣的我。是個怎樣的不知檢點。哈哈。讓我喝,讓我笑。笑吧。就讓我的心裡,少有的自尊也丟掉吧。不然呢?

租個房子,把所有的關於你的東西,扔了一遍又一遍,也,撿了一遍又一遍。也,換了又換,我的家。

多好,把重重的窗簾,拉上,白天也黑的,看不見。趴著,睡了。醒來,又是夜間。稀里糊塗的收拾了收拾,然後,就停了電。無奈的笑笑,算了。睡吧。累了,真想,就這樣。一睡不起。
  
沒有,太多的悲喜。愛恨情慾裡,沒有我的地點。哪怕,只有少少的落腳點,都被清理的干淨。是呀。感情不就是你情我願,那麼,我走,你留。和你的良緣。

傻傻的我,還留著你們的照片,不就因為,你是我的命,她是我最單純的朋友嗎?我拼命的說服自己,讓自己祝福你們。可惜,我是女人,每一個,會嫉妒的女人之一罷了。
  
哐當。門,隨心,一點一點的關上了。算了。壓壓馬路。聽聽誓言。嘲笑自己。幹嘛要這樣,折磨自己的愛戀。
  
也許,我是活該了自己的想念。沒有看到屬於自己的盲點。其實,呼之欲出,那麼明顯。只可惜,讓愛情蒙蔽了雙眼。相信了你,不會欺騙。
  
明天的晝夜,像平行線的交點。淡淡的發著幽幽的光芒,然後,漸行漸遠,然後在永恆的時間永恆的地點上,我淚灑滿天。於是,星星成了代言。月亮逝去了時間。悄悄的,溜進了銀河,溜出了心間。

真不知道,該怎麼計算,你離開的時間。總之是顛覆了所有可以顛覆的事件。逆轉了所有可以逆轉的曲線。現在的我,像一條平整的直線。去了迂迴的想念。刪了複雜的裝點。只留下了,最簡單的我。和,最親的抱抱熊。美美的,睡去。這一夜。睡的真是香甜。

夢見了我揪緊的心,一點一點的悵然。然後,笑著,接住了,你們拋出的花。大笑著這份愚昧,然後,緊緊擁在一起。那麼長的時間,我們錯過的,不僅是再見的喜悅和傷感。
  
走吧。感情說穿了,就是,我扔了,你們去撿。對啊,是我不要了。不是你不給了。呵。走吧。越遠越遠。

這樣,我也要和我手中的香煙,說了再見。深深的迷戀,永遠再見。死去的感情。我深埋在了花田的中央。被深夜掩蓋。安緬。

我要繼續走,遇見你之前的直線軌跡。這樣的一段彎曲。我會在心底撫平。然後,笑著,祝福。永永遠遠。不在懷念。就這樣把。行走在直線的軌跡上。

只是,當行走在直線上到永恆的長短時,我哭了。哭的那麼悲傷,那麼悲傷。

思往事,惜流芳,易成傷

Monday, July 28th, 2008

夜涼如水,幽幽夜空閃著點點星光。清風徐來,林梢作響,伴隨著蟬鳴宛如一曲旋律動聽的絲竹之音,只是寒夜淒神,心泛憂愁。無眠夜之漫漫,與誰共乎,心有愁之百千,有誰知之Wedding Decoration?

林花謝了春紅,太匆匆﹗無奈朝來寒雨晚來風。胭脂淚,留人醉,幾時重?自是人生常恨水常東﹗

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時間如流水上的花瓣逝去了,只留下淡淡的感傷,淡淡的留……

幾多情仇不過彈指揮念一瞬間,怨又如何,傷又如何…..

北雁思歸向南飛,所見之雁是否曾是舊時相識?

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A Christmas Gift

Thursday, November 29th, 2007

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Last year at Christmas time, my wife, three boys and I were in France, on our way from

Paris to Nice. For five wretched days everything had gone wrong. Our hotels were “tourist traps”, our rented car. On Christmas Eve, when we checked into a dingy hotel in Nice, there was no Christmas spirit in our hearts.

It was raining and cold when we went out to eat. We found a drab little joint shoddily decorated for the holidays. It smelled greasy. Only five tables in the restaurant were occupied. There were two German couples, two French families, and an American sailor, by himself. In the corner a piano player listlessly played Christmas music.

My wife ordered our meal in French. The waiter brought us the wrong thing. I scolded my wife for being stupid. She began to cry. The boys defended her, and I felt even worse.

Then, at the table with the French family on our left, a father slapped one of his children for some minor infraction, and the boy began to cry. On our right, the German wife began berating her husband.

All of us were interrupted by an unpleasant blast of cold air. Through the front door came an old French flower woman.; She wore a dripping, tattered overcoat and shuffled along slowly.

“Flower, monsieur? Only one franc.”

No one bought any.

Wearily she sat down at a table between the sailor and us. To the waiter she said, “A bowl of soup. I haven’t sold a flower all afternoon.” To the piano player she said hoarsely, “Can you imagine, Joseph, soup on Christmas Eve?”

He pointed to his empty “tipping plate”.

The young sailor finished his meal and got up to leave. Putting on his coat, he walker over to the flower woman’s table.

“Happy Christmas,” he said, smiling and picking out two corsages. “How much are they?”

“Two francs, monsieur.”

Pressing one of the small corsages flat, he put it into the letter he had written, then handed the woman a twenty-franc note.

“I don’t have change, monsieur,” she said. “I’ll get some from the waiter.”

“No, ma’am,” said the sailor, leaning over and kissing the ancient cheek. “This is my Christmas present to you.”

Straightening up, he came to our table, holding the other corsage in front of him. “Sir,” he said to me, “may I have permission to present these flowers to your beautiful daughter?” In one quick motion he gave my wife the corsage, and wished us a Merry Christmas!

The piano player began to belt out “Good

King Wenceslaus”, beating the keys with magic hands, nodding his head in rhythm.

My wife waved her corsage in time to the music. She was radiant and appeared twenty years younger. The tears had left her eyes, and the corners of her mouth turned up in laughter. She began to sing, and our three sons joined her, bellowing the song with uninhibited enthusiasm.

“Cut! Cut!” shouted the Germans. They jumped on their chairs and began singing the verse in German. The waiter embraced the flower woman. Waving their arms, they sang in French. The Frenchman who had slapped the boy beat rhythm with his for against a bottle. The lad climbed on his lap, singing in a youthful soprano.

The Germans ordered wine for everyone. They delivered it themselves, hugging the other customers. One of the French families called for champagne-made the rounds, kissing each one of us on both cheeks. The owner of the restaurant started “The First Noel”, and we all joined in, half of us crying.

People crowded in from the street until many customers were standing. The walls shook as hands and feet kept time to the Christmas carols.

The miserable evening in a shoddy restaurant ended up being the very best Christmas Eve we had ever experience just because of a young sailor who had Christmas spirit in his soul. He released the love and joy that had been smothered within us by anger and disappointment. He gave us Christmas.

The game’s not worth the candle

Friday, July 27th, 2007

May 7—I hadn’t wrote anything for yesterday, just spent a whole day on bed, I caught an awful cold. Today, I was doomed further unfavorable. Around 12 a m, while every body was on the phone content themselves with customers, another blackout occurred, in consequence with cutting out all the phone. It’s the third time in this morning. There is no further cheering voice anymore, we all started to bitch about blackout for effecting of lose business. Our manager asked me to call the superintendent for a fuse reconnecting. I followed his indication and called the superintendent, a man answered with sullen tone, on hearing me of room 3108, he replied to me rather testy. I didn’t even start mention what’s up with us, he said:” blackout again! ” “Yes, would you please help us with reconnecting the fuse” I politely requested. He answered, rather sharply:” you can’t ask us every time for your own problem, your company gotta do something. I realized he has been kept tiresome with reconnecting the fuse. “ all right, I’m sending a handyman to fix it, but you better solve your own problem soon” . 10 minutes later, the electricity back on.

In the noon, it’s lunch time. We switched off one of air-con for fear of blackout and ding our lunch through the microwave oven. The fourth blackout happened, and I was asked to call the superintendent again. I reluctantly dialed the phone then recognized it’s that sullen-toned man. Turns out he recognized me either, and said” please don’t tell me you blackout again!” . You can imagine how cold his words were. Finished the phone, I was so relieved. This time, it took 20 minutes to get the electricity back on.

We can’t withstand a string of blackout like this. The game’s not worth the candle!

For god’s sake

Friday, July 27th, 2007

May 5—Being Saturday, we work half day only. This morning, I got an urge call from

Canada, it was Mr. Leung

He told me our packing lists and invoices have some errors that brought on the cargo clearance problem in

Canada. It’s like a thunder-bolt heated on me. It’s fourth day on my job and I made such big careless mistake. I’m scared I would get fired by this incident, I only hope I can do something to make some change and avoid tragedy happening. Mr. Leung asked me to revises those forms and resend to him as soon as possible. I was so tense, and so concentrate on the revises thing, there were six forms needed to get done and to be mailed right away. While I was going to finish all the forms, the black out happened. That’s great!!! I hadn’t saved for the changing. I felt devastated!

However, I was blessed with the blackout wasn’t took that long and I saved myself from the trouble. But it was so close! Anyway, I sensed my work is hugely intimidated by blackout. If this blackout thing kept happening, I can’t imagine what can I deal with it the next time

We all took this as a good news

Friday, July 27th, 2007

May 4—The blackout thing happened three times again, I called the building handler to check out the hitch. It turns out our fuse blowout from an overload. It’s a problem seemed unsolvable for our company. We have 22 computers keep working during a day, and it’s impossible to work without them. The building superintendent informed us that the electricity is very tight for this peak season. Meanwhile, we were told the building fuse is getting old that triggers blackout, we all took this as good news. We considering the blackout would save us from boring work.

Cheer for the blackout

Friday, July 27th, 2007

May 3—As the biggest city in south city of

China, the weather in Shen Zhen is getting much hotter than other cities in this season. Our company has 120 square meters with three office rooms, one is for sales department, one is for engineer department and the third one is for boss, by the by, he just weekly come over on Friday. We have twenty-two staffs worked here and we all work in front of a third-hand-computer which much bothers me. Because it lumpish, radiate, ugly, and more importantly, it much consumed electricity.

Today is a good day for our sales. They sale on a telephone, our company installed a devise which is for taking a time record for sale’s call, they are supposed to delivery customers calling time at least 3 hours per day. It is a tolerance for such rule. This morning is quite hot than usual, we opened three air-cons, all of sudden, it occurred black out. We have no idea what’s going on, what a good pretext of unable to meet a 3 hours obligation. We all cheered for this occasion. It took long time to get electricity back on. So the time-record was halted for this accident